Going Gonzo – Bitch From Hell

Wednesday, 20th November 2019.


I have finally got a days work. I’ve just about survived my bill payments(so far), but this is more for my sanity than money.

I’ve tried everything to eleviate my boredom.

I set my guitar equipment up, messed around with some art projects and drunk a lot of Guinness.

Bottle top badges.

I’ve also made 2 cottage pies and a vat of chicken and sweetcorn soup for Carter(she is not allowed any solid food until February).

So, I haven’t just been sitting around doing fuck all but the busier I made myself, the more bored I was.I’m just sick of the constant struggle I suppose.

The sickness(depression) has been riding me like a bitch from hell. Add that to my constant belief in imminent death……………. Like I said, it’s a constant struggle.


I’m back at Waterloo already. Me and Big Gay Jay did a quick re-patch in Bond Street and left. If I’m not going to have consistent work then I want all the jobs to be like that.


Galaxy Counters – Minstrels for old people.

Thursday, 21st November 2019.


I’ve tried to make an effort to get up and out today but there were too many episodes of American Pickers on.

Way too much Dannie Diesel!

Anyway, I got out about eleven and have just returned from Flackwell Heath with materials for a job I’m doing tomorrow.

Right now I’m sitting in The George.


I doubt it. No matter how much I’d like to be.

In fact, I’m unsure why I’m even in Staines?

Fuck it!

I’ll do a bit of poundland and art supplies and get home.

Friday, 22nd November 2019.


I’m on the Northern heading back to Waterloo. I was in Soho at the “crack of fuck early” to do a little job.

Now, I have the Joys of the day to contend with.

Carter was admitted to hospital yesterday after I called an ambulance. I came home and she was passed out on the floor. It’s not the first time she has passed out due to constant coughing.

Anyway, they are doing all the tests again so she needs me to do a supply run of underwear, entertainment and food.

What a fun day!


I did all that. There were a few add-ons, like collecting Carter’s son from the station, cleaning up after the dog and some general housework.She seems ok but they have said that it will be Tuesday before more tests are done. It looks like she is in for the weekend then!

Saturday, 23rd November 2019.


I’ve just arrived at the hospital and Carter’s bed had disappeared. I toyed with idea that she was dead but then saw a text saying she had gone for a CT scan.

Typical bad timing by me.

Monday, 25th November 2019.


Day five of hospital visits and still no explanation or remedy. Let’s see what tomorrow brings.