Going Gonzo – I Think I’d Be Good For You And You’d Be Good For Me.

Thurday, 23rd May 2019. 16.53 As some of you may know. I have started the long and exciting task of turning “Journal Of A Desperate Man” into a novel. The main problem I am having is naming the main character. It seems like a simple task but, it’s amazingly hard. Such a small thing. Naming the desperate man?!?! Who would …

Going Gonzo – Writing An Escape.

Tuesday, 21st May 2019. 22.17 I’ve spent the evening watching Shaun of the dead. Followed by Jack Taylor. I quite like it. It’s got Iain Glen in it. He’s an ex-Garda in Galway. He’s an alcohol. He’s a private detective. What’s not to like? I managed an extra 600 odd words today. Not the 2000 I’d hoped for but it’s …

Going Gonzo – I’m a lot like you, so please, Hello, I’m here, I’m waiting.

Friday, 17th May 2019. 06.31 It all feels very familiar. Like a warm blanket. The six twenty nine train to Waterloo. Coffee by the little fella at the station. Headphones,…… Nicey. 11.46 Just to make it really like the old days, we had MaccyD’s. It’s like I’d never left. 13.37 Onwards to London Wall. A little job which I was …

Going Gonzo – Aftermath

Wednesday, 8th May 2019. 09.18 It was pissing down this morning so I gave Louis a lift to school. I returned home. Twenty minutes later I was at Carter’s. Being at home was like breathing soup. Christ. I’m lucky to have a friend like Carter. 11.29 I’m still at Carter’s. I watched Zombieland and now I’m watching Gross Point Blank. …

Going Gonzo – This is presented as a work of fiction and dedicated to nobody.

I’ve definitely passed the point of no return now. Isolation.I’ve cut my real human contact down to bare ration and have created the perfect work persona. Cloaked enough to shield myself yet close enough, to the real me, for ease. Friday, 3rd May 2019. 11.07 Surprisingly, it turned out all works required where done correctly yesterday. This means I don’t …

Going Gonzo – Watched X-Files. Drank Beer.

Monday, 29th April 2019. 13.10 I should come to expect that every Monday morning will be shit. Passes not organised. Engineers not communicating with each other. Trying to scrape jobs together to keep the engineers working in this quiet period. Etc, etc….. I am currently sitting in a carpark at Heathrow after jump starting one of the vans. I think …

Going Gonzo – Shower Of Shit

Tuesday, 23rd April 2019. 20.24 Easy day. Normal day. In fact, kinda boring. Wednesday, 24th April 2019. 11.16 My whole plan for today went wrong. I had every engineer over at a job in a prison. They all got past the gate. Then they were told that they had no works escorts. In a blur, we had to find something …

Going Gonzo – Positivity Reward

Wednesday, 17th April 2019. 12.32 It looks nice outside. I might go have a looksy. Back at my parents last night. I slept well. I think I’m finally getting used to having a whole bed to myself. Just tomorrow to get through before I can spend the 4 day weekend achieving very little. 16.48 Almost out the door. Unless something …

Going Gonzo – The Fear Of Survival.

“Once you think you have tasted death. All that is left, is the fear of survival” – MP. Wednesday, 10th April 2019. 20.23 I found myself squatting in the shadowy undergrowth. Down by the edge of the water. My fever induced sweat, dripping off my eyebrows, down onto my cheeks. I could see the happy couples passing, as the beads …

Going Gonzo – O Death.

Tuesday, 9th April 2019. 15.13 I managed two and a half hours at work before I was sent home. Then I went to the walk-in center and had blood and urine removed from me. After that, I did a little food shopping, went home and got into bed. That’s where I’ve been ever since. I feel like death. Maybe I …