Going Gonzo – Back To School

Thursday, 5th September 2019. 10.58 Everything appears to be back to normal.Louis went back to school yesterday and I went back to work today. Hopefully, there will only be minimal days off before the big Bedford job starts. The only thing I’ve learnt this week is, don’t put cheap tattoos from candy cigarette packets on your hand. Three showers later …

Going Gonzo – Endless

Thursday, 22nd August 2019. 17.28 This latest bout of limbo seems endless. I’m just trying to keep my morale up. I am definitely a disgusting wreck of a man though. I’m not feeling healthy but I don’t care enough to do anything about it. Apart from that, I’ve had a couple of days work this week and discussed Louis’ “after …

Going Gonzo – Ace

Friday, 2nd August 2019. 18.41 I’ve been in for a few hours. I did my RDR2 challenges(I’m on day 33 of continuous challenges. That’s how sad my life is!). I like an Ace. An Ace face. I turned the telly on and what did I find? An Ace. The Ace. Saturday, 3rd August 2019. 15.27 A gram of coke, 10 …

Going Gonzo – Hope’s Up.

Thursday, 1st August 2019. 06.47 I think I got past the first round of bills with a hundred pound to spare. Bonus. Well, maybe a little more but I bought the boys pizza last night. And thirty quids worth of pot! Heed the words of Freewheelin’ Franklin: 10.07 The Bouch finally arrived at about nine. He bought me a coffee …

Going Gonzo – Shit Skipper.

Monday, 29th July 2019. 14.32 Another week yay! I have work tomorrow but nothing else confirmed. Then I have about a grands worth of bills coming out on Wednesday. I just can’t wait! It’s so exciting………… Nah. I just can’t do it. Pretend everything is OK? I can’t even manage it when I have no reason to be sad. Let …

Going Gonzo – Today’s Fuck It!

Thursday, 35th July 2019. 10.08 Yesterday’s depression has had a sleep and woken up with a “Fuck It” attitude. It doesn’t magic money out of thin air but at least it’s a bit more upbeat. I watched a documentary about Nick Drake last night. It’s a kinda sad story. 18.06 It’s still too hot to function. 18.58 I managed to …

Going Gonzo – Broken Dream.

It’s amazing how quick a dream can become a nightmare. It was a solid plan. New Life. New Place. New Love. New Me. Only one thing stood in the way. The “everything” that meant it could happen. I honestly thought my luck had changed. I mean, after what seemed like, twenty years of losing. I get to win this one, …

Going Gonzo – Soul On A Good Day

Monday, 22nd July 2019. 06.23 The biggest tragedy of life is getting up on a Monday. Unless you’re Terry Favour. It’s supposed to be very warm this week, but right now it’s grey. Like my soul on a good day. I can’t think of anything worth while that will happen this week? Oh! Apart from Carter’s birthday. I’ll have to …

Going Gonzo – Refreshing

Saturday, 20th July 2019. 20.11 That was pretty much how the day started. I knew I had agreed to go into town. Carter needed craft supplies for a work thing. I survived HobbyCraft but insisted on Nostrano’s directly after. They do a fair Bloody Mary but I had to buy the pint because they are so, fucking, slow! Look! I’d …

Going Gonzo – Twix

Friday, 19th July 2019. 06.37 I had a shave last night. That went some way towards alleviating my depression. So, I decided to see what today would bring. My whole inner self is screaming, “FUCK ALL YOU CUNT!” A ray of sunshine reflected off the tiny badge of optimism I was wearing on my lapel. As I emerged from the …