Journal Of A Desperate Man – Original Draft.

I decided I should write it down, before it was too late…… I was in the bathroom, trying to scrape the encrusted blood and sticky residue of cocaine from my nostrils. I grinned at my reflection in the mirror. I was distracted from my stained teeth, by my grey complexion. The whites of my eyes were blood shot and yellowing. …

Going Gonzo – Help Is Definitely On It’s Way!

Saturday, 16th February 2019. 12.43 ZzzzzzzzZ. Sleep. What a fantastic mistress she is. I feel better for it and tonight I get to have a repeat performance. Only this time I’ll use Carter’s dirty pillows as…, well, pillows. I’m not quite there yet though. I have to reconnect all my dads ageing TV boxes to his brand new 55″ Sony …

Going Gonzo – Retro

Monday, 11th January 2019. 10.12 I definitely don’t feel like I’ve had any sort of weekend but a fathers duty is never done I suppose. My shoes were fucked after standing in the rain in Southall on Friday, so I’ve had to break out the reserves I bought the other week. They are a kinda retro boot/trainer type thing. Alright …

Going Gonzo – Roll The Dice.

Friday, 1st February 2019. 08.19 It has had a little snow. Judging by the roads most people have used it as the worst excuse in the world not to go to work. I didn’t think of it. I just got in the car and drove. 11.34 The day is slowly moving along. No real dramas. I checked on the boy. …

Going Gonzo – ZERO

31st January 2019. 11.07 Let’s not let the “pain in the arse” morning get in the way of actually having some money again! The first thing I did was stop at the Co-Op for a pack of snouts. I decided to continue and cross Chertsey bridge instead of Staines bridge. Big Mistake. The M25 had been shut causing masses of …

Going Gonzo – Day 3. It’s Day 2 you idiot!

Monday, 28th January 2019. 21.14 Ok. It’s not officially “day 3”, but beginnings have beginnings, and verbal diarrhea is a unpredictable bed-friend I have. I’m avoiding calls from my ex. I’m too tired. “But Mark, if you’re tired, why are you writing your pointless, shit-poor, excuse of a blog?” Good question. The answer is; Get yourself a twenty year EX! …

Going Gonzo – Putting Things Right.

Tuesday, 15th January 2019. 08.14 Today’s success is going to rest upon two things: How successful I am at blagging the overdraft decision. What happens at school today with Louis. I’ll ring the bank at lunchtime and, probably, the school. I need to ensure they doing something about it. 09.58 I couldn’t help myself. I’ve rung the school. I am …

The End..?

Thursday, 20th December 2018. 15.26 Sports Bar, Waterloo. At this very moment, I have no job, no money and won’t have any more money until the end of January. I’m pleased to say that my loyalty has been rewarded by absolutely no Christmas bonus and the worst final day. I did have the option to work tomorrow but due to …

Start!

Monday, 10th December 2018. 10.20 London’s great isn’t it? No. Not really! It’s ok. I’m just having a work related hatred moment. I like it sometimes but when I’m wandering about looking for an electrical wholesaler around Oxford/Regent Street in the freezing cold, I’m less than keen. Not long now. A couple of weeks and wandering days will be over. …

Whispers In The Dark.

Wednesday, 5th December 2018. 18.31 There is always a small, glimmering light. Even at the end of the darkest of tunnels. I say this, because, I’ve been too far down the rabbit hole. Seen truths that I’d rather not have seen. But then, all of a sudden, there’s the glimmer. I officially got offered a permanent job today. The money …