Going Gonzo – Back To School

Thursday, 5th September 2019. 10.58 Everything appears to be back to normal.Louis went back to school yesterday and I went back to work today. Hopefully, there will only be minimal days off before the big Bedford job starts. The only thing I’ve learnt this week is, don’t put cheap tattoos from candy cigarette packets on your hand. Three showers later …

Going Gonzo – Nothing

Thursday, 8th August 2019. 17.24 Nothing has happened. Literally NOTHING! 18.59 I’ve managed to keep up with bills(so far!). I worked Monday and Tuesday and had to immediately ask for the money. The next days work I have is Saturday. That’s money will cover my rent and maintenance payment, leaving me with nothing to pay next weeks bills. We currently …

Going Gonzo – Ace

Friday, 2nd August 2019. 18.41 I’ve been in for a few hours. I did my RDR2 challenges(I’m on day 33 of continuous challenges. That’s how sad my life is!). I like an Ace. An Ace face. I turned the telly on and what did I find? An Ace. The Ace. Saturday, 3rd August 2019. 15.27 A gram of coke, 10 …

Going Gonzo – Today’s Fuck It!

Thursday, 35th July 2019. 10.08 Yesterday’s depression has had a sleep and woken up with a “Fuck It” attitude. It doesn’t magic money out of thin air but at least it’s a bit more upbeat. I watched a documentary about Nick Drake last night. It’s a kinda sad story. 18.06 It’s still too hot to function. 18.58 I managed to …

Going Gonzo – Broken Dream.

It’s amazing how quick a dream can become a nightmare. It was a solid plan. New Life. New Place. New Love. New Me. Only one thing stood in the way. The “everything” that meant it could happen. I honestly thought my luck had changed. I mean, after what seemed like, twenty years of losing. I get to win this one, …

Going Gonzo – Soul On A Good Day

Monday, 22nd July 2019. 06.23 The biggest tragedy of life is getting up on a Monday. Unless you’re Terry Favour. It’s supposed to be very warm this week, but right now it’s grey. Like my soul on a good day. I can’t think of anything worth while that will happen this week? Oh! Apart from Carter’s birthday. I’ll have to …

Going Gonzo – Refreshing

Saturday, 20th July 2019. 20.11 That was pretty much how the day started. I knew I had agreed to go into town. Carter needed craft supplies for a work thing. I survived HobbyCraft but insisted on Nostrano’s directly after. They do a fair Bloody Mary but I had to buy the pint because they are so, fucking, slow! Look! I’d …

Going Gonzo – Twix

Friday, 19th July 2019. 06.37 I had a shave last night. That went some way towards alleviating my depression. So, I decided to see what today would bring. My whole inner self is screaming, “FUCK ALL YOU CUNT!” A ray of sunshine reflected off the tiny badge of optimism I was wearing on my lapel. As I emerged from the …

Going Gonzo – Skill Set

Monday, 15th July 2019. 10.23 The only goal I have today is making sure Louis gets on his train alright. I’ve had to go to work in Gatwick(got removed from the other job as my skill set was required back in Gatwick), so it’s not the best place to be making that happen. I’ll just have to rely on him …

Going Gonzo – Cruel Summer.

Friday, 12th July 2019. 06.56 Friday again. I’m sitting on a wall waiting for my boss to collect me. I’ve worked out that, even after being paid, I still have no money, but at least there is light on the horizon. The main issue is a loan payment that bounced last week. I thought they would have tried to retake …