Going Gonzo – Shit Skipper.

Monday, 29th July 2019. 14.32 Another week yay! I have work tomorrow but nothing else confirmed. Then I have about a grands worth of bills coming out on Wednesday. I just can’t wait! It’s so exciting………… Nah. I just can’t do it. Pretend everything is OK? I can’t even manage it when I have no reason to be sad. Let …

Going Gonzo – Today’s Fuck It!

Thursday, 35th July 2019. 10.08 Yesterday’s depression has had a sleep and woken up with a “Fuck It” attitude. It doesn’t magic money out of thin air but at least it’s a bit more upbeat. I watched a documentary about Nick Drake last night. It’s a kinda sad story. 18.06 It’s still too hot to function. 18.58 I managed to …

Going Gonzo – Broken Dream.

It’s amazing how quick a dream can become a nightmare. It was a solid plan. New Life. New Place. New Love. New Me. Only one thing stood in the way. The “everything” that meant it could happen. I honestly thought my luck had changed. I mean, after what seemed like, twenty years of losing. I get to win this one, …

Going Gonzo – Soul On A Good Day

Monday, 22nd July 2019. 06.23 The biggest tragedy of life is getting up on a Monday. Unless you’re Terry Favour. It’s supposed to be very warm this week, but right now it’s grey. Like my soul on a good day. I can’t think of anything worth while that will happen this week? Oh! Apart from Carter’s birthday. I’ll have to …

Going Gonzo – Refreshing

Saturday, 20th July 2019. 20.11 That was pretty much how the day started. I knew I had agreed to go into town. Carter needed craft supplies for a work thing. I survived HobbyCraft but insisted on Nostrano’s directly after. They do a fair Bloody Mary but I had to buy the pint because they are so, fucking, slow! Look! I’d …

Going Gonzo – Twix

Friday, 19th July 2019. 06.37 I had a shave last night. That went some way towards alleviating my depression. So, I decided to see what today would bring. My whole inner self is screaming, “FUCK ALL YOU CUNT!” A ray of sunshine reflected off the tiny badge of optimism I was wearing on my lapel. As I emerged from the …

Going Gonzo – Unfulfilled Ambition For Unfulfillable Dreams.

Thursday, 18th July 2019. 06.46 Today I am no longer immortal. It turns out that, all along, I was just an ageing dreamer. Full of unfulfilled ambition for unfulfillable dreams. 08.59 Now that I’ve had a few coffees, I feel a bit more alive. The above statement still stands. I found my timeline for yesterday. It was a good trot. …

Going Gonzo – Skill Set

Monday, 15th July 2019. 10.23 The only goal I have today is making sure Louis gets on his train alright. I’ve had to go to work in Gatwick(got removed from the other job as my skill set was required back in Gatwick), so it’s not the best place to be making that happen. I’ll just have to rely on him …

Going Gonzo – Cruel Summer.

Friday, 12th July 2019. 06.56 Friday again. I’m sitting on a wall waiting for my boss to collect me. I’ve worked out that, even after being paid, I still have no money, but at least there is light on the horizon. The main issue is a loan payment that bounced last week. I thought they would have tried to retake …

Going Gonzo – Interaction.

Monday, 8th July 2019. 08.54 And it goes on. I had a call from my ex saying that Sonny isn’t coming this weekend. He was supposed to come and stay from Wednesday until Monday. The reason he was coming Wednesday was that she was coming to Staines to take Louis out for his birthday but he wants to do sonething …