Going Gonzo – Working For Headspace

Monday, 27th May 2019. 16.21 My plan to hit the dump was flawed. When I arrived at the queue of cars about half a mile away, I realised that I could lose my whole day waiting to get in there. I swiftly turned around. The summerhouse is now ready to be painted. Once that’s done I will lay the carpet …

Going Gonzo – I Think I’d Be Good For You And You’d Be Good For Me.

Thurday, 23rd May 2019. 16.53 As some of you may know. I have started the long and exciting task of turning “Journal Of A Desperate Man” into a novel. The main problem I am having is naming the main character. It seems like a simple task but, it’s amazingly hard. Such a small thing. Naming the desperate man?!?! Who would …

Journal Of A Desperate Man – Original Draft.

I decided I should write it down, before it was too late…… I was in the bathroom, trying to scrape the encrusted blood and sticky residue of cocaine from my nostrils. I grinned at my reflection in the mirror. I was distracted from my stained teeth, by my grey complexion. The whites of my eyes were blood shot and yellowing. …

Going Gonzo – Writing An Escape.

Tuesday, 21st May 2019. 22.17 I’ve spent the evening watching Shaun of the dead. Followed by Jack Taylor. I quite like it. It’s got Iain Glen in it. He’s an ex-Garda in Galway. He’s an alcohol. He’s a private detective. What’s not to like? I managed an extra 600 odd words today. Not the 2000 I’d hoped for but it’s …

Going Gonzo – I’m a lot like you, so please, Hello, I’m here, I’m waiting.

Friday, 17th May 2019. 06.31 It all feels very familiar. Like a warm blanket. The six twenty nine train to Waterloo. Coffee by the little fella at the station. Headphones,…… Nicey. 11.46 Just to make it really like the old days, we had MaccyD’s. It’s like I’d never left. 13.37 Onwards to London Wall. A little job which I was …

Going Gonzo – What happened next.

Saturday, 11th May 2019. 11.01 First off. Yes. Of course, I went off the rails, spent money I didn’t have and got shitfaced for a couple of days. It would have been rude not to. Anyway, it’s Saturday now. I managed to make the work related phone calls. I’m unsure if I’ll have won Monday but I’ll remain positive. The …

Going Gonzo – Aftermath

Wednesday, 8th May 2019. 09.18 It was pissing down this morning so I gave Louis a lift to school. I returned home. Twenty minutes later I was at Carter’s. Being at home was like breathing soup. Christ. I’m lucky to have a friend like Carter. 11.29 I’m still at Carter’s. I watched Zombieland and now I’m watching Gross Point Blank. …

Going Gonzo – This is presented as a work of fiction and dedicated to nobody.

I’ve definitely passed the point of no return now. Isolation.I’ve cut my real human contact down to bare ration and have created the perfect work persona. Cloaked enough to shield myself yet close enough, to the real me, for ease. Friday, 3rd May 2019. 11.07 Surprisingly, it turned out all works required where done correctly yesterday. This means I don’t …

Going Gonzo – Watched X-Files. Drank Beer.

Monday, 29th April 2019. 13.10 I should come to expect that every Monday morning will be shit. Passes not organised. Engineers not communicating with each other. Trying to scrape jobs together to keep the engineers working in this quiet period. Etc, etc….. I am currently sitting in a carpark at Heathrow after jump starting one of the vans. I think …