Going Gonzo – Wonder Boy

Friday, 26th April 2019. 23.11 Friday nights eh! So far, it’s been successful. I played little RDR2. Sean saw me online so we had a catch up. We laughed about the crazy times. I drank a few Corona’s. Now I’m continuing watching Vexed and smoking a fatty. It’s the little things. I’m not sure I just wrote that. It didn’t …

Going Gonzo – Shower Of Shit

Tuesday, 23rd April 2019. 20.24 Easy day. Normal day. In fact, kinda boring. Wednesday, 24th April 2019. 11.16 My whole plan for today went wrong. I had every engineer over at a job in a prison. They all got past the gate. Then they were told that they had no works escorts. In a blur, we had to find something …

Going Gonzo – Bank Holiday

Friday, 19th April 2019. 11.41 I’ve had my big sleep. I’ve answered my final email of the week. Now, it’s just about me until Tuesday. I’ll be truthful. I really don’t know what to do with myself. I am currently laying on my bed, listening to Park life. I’ve just hit End Of The Century. I’m dressed. The windows and …

Going Gonzo – Positivity Reward

Wednesday, 17th April 2019. 12.32 It looks nice outside. I might go have a looksy. Back at my parents last night. I slept well. I think I’m finally getting used to having a whole bed to myself. Just tomorrow to get through before I can spend the 4 day weekend achieving very little. 16.48 Almost out the door. Unless something …

Going Gonzo – Back To Work.

Monday, 15th April 2019. 09.08 Well. I’m an work. I built it up to extremes in my head but it’s been OK, so far. A bit of a frosty reception but that is to be expected. Give it a couple more hours and we will see if it returns to normal. If not, I’m sure within a couple of days …

Going Gonzo – Hell To Skelter

Saturday, 13th April 2019. 12.51 I thought I might escape any Adulting today, but one look at Louis’ trainers made me realise I wouldn’t. One shop and one credit card transaction later, we were in the George. We sat upstairs and ignored each other. I watched the gutter of life(that includes myself), come up and down the spiral stairs. An …

Going Gonzo – The Fear Of Survival.

“Once you think you have tasted death. All that is left, is the fear of survival” – MP. Wednesday, 10th April 2019. 20.23 I found myself squatting in the shadowy undergrowth. Down by the edge of the water. My fever induced sweat, dripping off my eyebrows, down onto my cheeks. I could see the happy couples passing, as the beads …

Going Gonzo – O Death.

Tuesday, 9th April 2019. 15.13 I managed two and a half hours at work before I was sent home. Then I went to the walk-in center and had blood and urine removed from me. After that, I did a little food shopping, went home and got into bed. That’s where I’ve been ever since. I feel like death. Maybe I …

Going Gonzo – No More Of That Talk.

Friday, 5th April 2019. 09.59 “No more of that talk. “ “Or I’ll put the leeches on you.” Exactly right. That’s the talking to I just gave myself about being such a doom monger. After all, it is Friday. I should find something to enjoy. No. Not drugs. Something wholesome, creative,……..? I say this every weekend. So, by rights, it …